decision-making
i tried to wait
but i’m already tired.
i tried to make it work
but i failed.
i tried to love again
but i don’t know
where to start.
i’m afraid now
to be hurt
once more.
BeEn veRy ThaNkful
eversince i’ve known you
i’ve been very thankful
coz you came to my life
to be my Saviour, my friend, and my Lord
i’ve been very thankful
for all the things you’ve done
for all the words you’ve said
for all the love you’ve spent
and for all the sacrifices you’ve made.
now, you are more than enough for me.
i want to know you more and more
and be useful for your glory
coz i know you’ll be happy
if you see me working in your ministry.
Cho.
i’m a sinful man in a sinful world
but you picked me up to be your own
you made me whole, and you washed me
from the blood of Jesus Christ.
here i am standing still
and waiting for the day you’ll come
so, i will sing you
a brand new song
to make you smile.
i must not confess anything.
i must not tell anyone of our escapades. you are not mine now. but still, my heart belongs to you.
well..life must go on..but i know that God would never leaves me empty.
“confusing”
she owned you
but you love me.
i love you
but i couldn’t have you.
she loved you
but your heart belongs to me.
you love me
but your presence
is with her.
very confusing,
yet very true.
is this really love?
is this really my fate,
yours,
and hers?
why we need to love..
Loving someone seems so mysterious, coz when somebody ask you, “Why do you love him?” we just say, “because it’s how i feel and he’s the one who makes my heart beats faster”.
But how sure are you to say that you really love that person? Do we really need to base our feelings with what our heart says?
Do we have an assurance with our heart?
Heart could be so deceiving and playful in terms of loving, specially when we say “we are in love”. But we couldn’t blame our hearts. After all, the final decision is still in our hands.
Why we have to fall in love?
Why we need to love? After all, we get hurt.
Isn’t it a work of mystery that even love in itself couldn’t answer?
Personally, I’m wondering why I have to love and why I need to love.
Loving is hurting. Whether we hurt other people or we ourselves get hurt.
Loving is like your accepting the worst consequences of life.
Yet, to love is inevitable.
That’s why we say we are in love though we don’t find any reasons why and how it happens. We just go with the flow and follow what our hearts commanded us to do. We let the certain feelings to grow.
For me, it’s not necessary to love someone. We need it in order to live life.
But, be careful to whom you give your heart. Perhaps, that person is never deserving of that love or maybe someone else need that.
Honestly, I’m afraid to love, afraid of consequences it brings coz I don’t believe that love is happy and it feels like heaven. Maybe for some, but I don’t think so. Love for me is unexplainable and wordless, so couldn’t say it’s like heaven even when you’re in hell.
ReminderS from God
For all the negative things we say to ourselves, God has a positive answer to it…
You say: It’s impossible,
God says: “All things are possible” (Luke 16:27)
You say: “I’m too tired.”
God says: ” I will give you rest” (Matthew 11:28)
You say: ” Nobody really loves me.”
God says: ” I love you” (John 3:16)
You say: ” I can’t do it.”
God says: ” I can do all things” (Philippians 4:13)
You say: ” I feel all alone.”
God says: ” I will never leave you nor forsake you” (Hebrews 13:5)
You says: ” I’m afraid.”
God says: ” I have not given you the spirit of fear” (2 Timothy 1:7)
So, we must always armed ourself with faith…
Hope you learn something and God speaks to you…
be Reborn
maybe many people rejects you? or either making you feel so down?
..there’s no remedy for that except keeping and having God in you life…
do you think you are alone right now?
…no! coz God is always there waiting you to call to Him..
do you think life is so easy??
..no! coz there’s always trials and circumstances to battle for..
..remember—–HE’s just there when you needed Him most…
irritation
i was irritated with a guy at ny back…he’s so pakialamero..
i hate that kind of person…so pathetic..as if he could help me with my works..
cry
i cry for a while to see how tears fall down to my cheeks..
i cry for a while to see the reaction of people around me…
i cry for a while to see the difference between tears amd smile..
i cry for a while to feel if i’m in paiin..
i cry because i love to cry for a while…
i’m so tired..
I’m so tired really..all these papers , projects, exams and all.. but I’m starting to like it though somehow I feel like giving up..still I don’t want to lose hope..never I will lose hope..I want to write, that’s one of my dreams in life..I want to make something that in the eyes of many, I can’t do. I want to prove myself that somehow I have a worth..
I don’t want to please anybody just to gain their praises? I don’t go to school and study just to have a profession? Neither I go to school to make my parents proud of me?? NO..a big NO, NO..
I study because I want it..It’s normal right?
I desire someday..I can make a book by myself that in the end, I can just have a copy of it..
but I’m so tired at this very moment.. and I want to eat..eat and eat..
